Why do i enjoy hurting other people?

There is only one thing i am proud of in my life and that is : cyber raping people. I take my time to collect information about my prey, follow them hours without getting bored. I love to learn intimate information about my prey. I manipulate idiot people to collaborate with me so i can hunt in numbers so nobody will suspect what kind of man i am. I am a predator. I enjoy hurting people. That is how i feel alive. I have a 11 year old kid who is going to need money to go to a college soon but I don't care. Why do i enjoy hunting people in chat rooms? Why? i want to be a better person. Please help...